Just Me……

Last year(2009)…..My b’day…..Switzerland…..
Time halted…. Wanted nothing more…. I was in heaven…. What more could I possibly ask for? It was the most perfect weekend of my life. At times, we soo need a time out…. A time just for ourselves….. The long walks in the evenings. The Sunday afternoon by the lake, family and friends, some wine, a good dog, kids and PEACE! A time when I could clearly reflect on everything, just everything in totality, going on in my life. When I could just so sort my self out. Somehow I didn’t want to come back home. All the home sickness was gone. I dint want to take any calls. Just wanted to be alone. That was one time when I felt I needed no one. No family. No friends. Just myself. A time when I could talk to myself. When I could hear the sound of silence. When I could hear the music in the air. I had the most peaceful sleep I remember in the recent past. I haven’t felt that peace ever since. Feels like I’m losing myself and need such a time out to reconnect with the real me. The me that is still innocent, all so beautiful, who smiles at bill boards and loves to watch flowers by the street, whose eyes start gleaming seeing the smile on a child’s face, who walks past strangers in a distant country feeling blessed for the fortunate life she lives, who loved shopping in the smallest of shops and felt extreme happiness on imagining her mom’s reaction on seeing everything she bought, the me who is just so strong to keep her head up and be proud of herself even against the worst of the odds, who enjoyed a train ride as if for the first time, the mountains, the scenery….Ahh sooo beautiful!!
I can re-live every moment of that trip in my mind, in my heart. I want to thank God for giving me such a perfect, well timed break whose memories rejuvenate me and give me strength even today. I feel blessed for having connected to nature and to myself in such a beautiful way!